And so it goes....

Listening to Youth Lagoon: July 

New beginnings can be bittersweet.

But, as I write to you on the eve of my last day at a job I’ve had for nearly four years, I’ve never felt more…exhilarated, at peace, and well….

terrified.

I've learned more about myself in the past four years of working at this job than I had in the previous 20. For instance, really feeling what it is that tugs at my heartstrings and motivates that push; learning to adapt to an audience with just the introduction of my name; finding even the slightest ounce of patience and understanding to even the most outrageous of life experiences; discovering how to live in this moment and focus on what is here in front of me; not to dwell on things that are out of my control. I was given the opportunity to not only work with, but also alongside, individuals who have seen the extreme depths of struggle- and even worked through a few patches in my life that weren’t going so smoothly.  To be able to shift my perspective and understand human suffering, struggle, and honest mistakes has given me the gift of humbleness- this introspective idea that we’re all just walking around, trying to figure “it” out.  But realizing that this thing we’re all searching for is what should make us get out of bed in the morning, and that too many of us are afraid to lean in the discomfort of what it takes to find it.

I refuse to let the discomfort stand in my way.

Monday will mark my first ‘official’ day with the Idaho Trial Lawyers Association, doing everything from coordinating events, assist with lobbying in Idaho legislation, to handling all communications of the organization. I would be lying if I told you I wasn’t having my own self-doubts (Yeah, mostly I've been freaking out…) about entering my foot into this new “professional realm”, I also recognize that I have never been more ready. I have many people in my life to thank – from the most amazing friends and family, co-workers, bosses, and by-standing Boise professionals that whatever it is inside of me- I couldn’t be doing this without any of you.

Cheers to new beginnings, dear readers. I’m scared as hell and ready as ever.